30 Days of Joy.

Do you ever get that feeling where your heart feels like its being torn apart and tears just fall from your eyes and you have no idea why? Well thats me...not all the time but sometimes. Sometimes its out of stress, sometimes its out of frustration and maybe more so recently, out of the uncertainties of life.

Not to write some sappy blog post after a year of being MIA but sometimes it be like that for me and I feel like my love tanks been running dangerously low these days. 

A doctor once said that if we view relationships as a shared bank account, we withdraw $5 every time a negative event occurs but we only deposit $1 for every positive event. Therefore, we should always try to create positive moments. This was meant for more of a romantic relationship context but I feel like it relates to our relationship with God as well. Many times 1 bad thing can happen to us on a really good day and all of a sudden the day is ruined and we completely forget all the blessings that came with the day. Ok maybe thats just me; I'm sadly someone who adds and withdraws very easily. 

So, I've decided to challenge myself to find my own moments or maybe even create them to deposit into this life/love bank of mine. I'm calling it my 30 days of joy and I hope to either capture or write down moments every day that fills my tank. Conveniently my friend gifted me with a new journal (that happens to be titled footprints..coincidence? I think not.) and I hope to fill it with the great things God has placed on this earth. There's always something to be thankful for, something to appreciate and something to remind us of His love for us. I want to remember those things and not drive myself nuts on the negatives. Maybe I'll share it with people, or maybe it'll be just for me. I'm starting this at a time of complete chaos, school is ending and finals week is creeping up and there are so many things I'm unsure of and though every part of me wishes to push this off til after I graduate, these are the moments I need it the most. Hopefully I'll be able to complete it.